NOTE: I wrote this piece listening to Jay Z classic album ‘Reasonable Doubts’ and this concept/poem was birthed from the song “Regrets”… I hope you like, understand and do not read too far into it either…

I have regrets

Things I’d like to forget

Instead of drowning myself in a bottle of gin

Contemplating this rope round my neck

Memories I wish I wouldn’t remember

Thoughts I didn’t consider happy but painful moments in time

Hours

Minutes

Seconds I wish were obsolete

A dream I wish I never dreamt

That path I hate my mom and absent father for-

Those short breaths of passion they shared…

Giving life to the other me that had to endure this journey of

Hopeless love

Impossible feats of adversity

Fantasies of happiness

Endless falls,

Let downs and broken promises

(LIFE)

“This is the number one rule for your set
In order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets
On the, rise to the top, many drop, don’t forget
In order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets
This is the number one rule for your set
In order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets
And through our travels we get seperated, never forget
In order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets”

                                                -Jay Z “Regrets” chorus 1

 

I have regrets

Many, which I blame others for

Upon bending knees

Clasped hands

Eyes high into the sky,

As if,

The answers will fall with every raindrop

Covering the tears sliding down my cheek

As if,

The earth will awaken and open its jaws to swallow me whole

The easiest way to abandon the mistakes I’ve made

To no longer exist in a world where I can never be forgiven

And  love is no longer a given

As if,

Judgment has been passed

And this,

My last days!

 

I have regrets.

Some I wish I could forget

That many more, I wish to just let

Roll off my back and go…

Fight  no more, and learn to live with  regrets…

“You used to hold me, told me that I was the best
Anything in this world I want I could possess
All that made me want is all that I could get
In order to survive, gotta learn to live with regrets…”

                                                                                – Jay Z “Regrets” chorus 2

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